I’m done seeking acceptance or validation for how I feel or my choices in anything. If I want to eat a whole pint of Ben and Jerry’s, I will. Go on and tell me how childish it is or how my tummy will hurt in 20 minutes. Yeah, I know. But I want to so I’m going to do it. I’ve spent too much time seeking people’s approval for things I do. When the only person that needs to be okay with things is myself. So this is my break up letter to all the people in my life that think they can tell me what to do or that think telling me not to do something is more than a waste of hot air. I’m going to make my decisions and because I’m me, I know what everyone will say.
I’m not a big risk taker in the sense that I’m never going to jump out of a plane or run across hot coals. But I do take emotional risks as if I’ve never been hurt before? Why? Because, to me, it’s exhilarating. It’s my adrenalin rush.
I believe that wearing your heart on your sleeve is one of the bravest things a person can do. Being vulnerable takes so much bravery. That’s why people are afraid of it. A year ago I chose to stop letting fear dictate my life. I chose to live the way I want to and not let fear get in the way of that.
I wear my heart on my sleeve, I always have and I always will. People will take advantage of me. I know that. I’m going to get hurt. I know that. But I just don’t care. All I care about is loving to my maximum capacity. I’ve got a heart that sits out in the open. I’m willing to love anyone and anything because that’s who I am. I forgive because being resentful is stupid. There’s no such thing as hate. Just the absence of love. I’ve struggled my entire life with trying to figure out what I want to do. But I think I finally figured it out. All I want to do in my life is make people happy and to make sure they know they are loved. Because that’s what I do best and it’s what makes me happy. My goal everyday is to make sure everyone that comes in contact with me walks away feeling happy and with a smile on their face.I aim to be that person who makes you feel happy just by being around you. Seeing happy people makes me happy.
Point being, don’t tell me what I’m doing is stupid or whatever. I mean by all means go ahead and tell me but I probably will just nod and brush it off. I’m going to keep doing my thing and love people for being people. We’ve got a limited amount of time on this planet. I don’t want to waste anymore time being angry or sad about stupid things. I’m just going to be happy and give love to humans like me because I think that’s what we all need. Love and probably some chocolate.